A few thoughts on Church

Looking for a church is not easy. Being in an interracial relationship with children I look for a few things. 

Here's my personal list

1) I need a multiracial church

2) Non-denominational 

3) Laid back setting

4) Children's church

I love The Lord but honestly I don't always feel like going to church. That's why I make it a weekly goal so no matter what, I know I need to go. (my accountability) We've been to a few churches and seen a few things. If you start learning personal things about a Pastor does it make you have a different view on them or can you separate the two? Honestly it's hard for me to do it. A Pastors role is extremely crucial & should be taken serious and not as a money maker! I'm coming to you as a spiritual adviser and you need to live right. Yes, I know their human but come on, lets be real! We are all held accountable and a sin is a sin but do you feel they should have some form of higher standards? I do. If someone is doing something illegal do you want them telling you to get yourself right? What if they don't treat their spouse right? What if they live a double life? We can go on and on here. How do you handle when there are things you feel just ain't right? I'm in that situation. I like our Pastor but there is a Pastor at the church that I just don't know about. I do question a few things he speaks about. Man are called but few are chosen (Mat 22:14) the Bible also speaks of false prophets. I'm left puzzled when around him and I don't like that feeling. I struggle with the "You can't judge someone only God can." I'm not trying to judge him but I'm confused based on his preaching and a few things in his personal life. I need to pray that God will give me the direction to go in because this is beyond me. What are your thoughts? 

Scripture vs Testimony

Grace- (in Christian belief) the free and unmerited favor of God, as manifested in the salvation of sinners and the bestowal of blessings.
* a divinely given talent or blessing
* the condition or fact of being favored by someone

Hope- a feeling of expectation and desire for  a certain thing to happen

Faith- complete trust or confidence in someone or something

Mercy- compassion or forgiveness shown toward someone whom it is within one's power to punish or harm


I try not to use the word Hope as much as I can because I feel I should have more Faith then anything. I know we have our own personally relationships with God but I've never meet someone that is so far left field. At first I didn't know how to digest it, I was so mind blown. There are times I get hit with something that truly boggles my mind and speaking with this person gave me a boggling moment. When can be a Holy Roller or churchy but sometimes sharing your story is a blessing in it self. I don't consider myself churchy but sometimes just breaking it down and being real will create a greater impact then giving scriptures. Knowing the bible is amazing but I don't know it. I can't quote the bible to save my life. Do I need to study so I can learn, yeah I do. But sometimes you just need to listen. Don't listen to judge but listen to help. Don't go around saying,"I'm a Christian." but don't act like it. I'm far from perfect but everyday is a new day and you can only try. Nothing in life is easy and being a Christian is no different!